INVISIBLE

Invisible, no one sees me

 Invisible, no one hears

Silenced, you don’t hear my cries

Blinded, you don’t see my tears

 I don’t want to hurt and burden you

Don’t want to cause you pain

I don’t want you to see the darkness

Of my cold and foggy rain

I don’t want you to feel the storm

 raging deep within my soul

I don’t want my darkness

To be the story that you know 

I will give you shelter in the harbor

Just outside my heart

I can sever my shackle from the anchor 

As I silently depart 

Cut and sliced by angry icy tides

No course on which to sail 

Can’t find my way upon these waters  

Shrouded by a thickening veil

There are no treasures left to find 

In this dark and murky sea

The weight of all I carry

Is slowly drowning me

Invisibly

Goodbye

When I look into your eyes

I don’t see I’m sorry 

I don’t see regret

I see the shadow of a father, 

I wish I could forget. 

The secrets behind your eyes, 

the truths buried deep within your heart,

no one really knows them,  

your smile hides the dark.

 You thought that you could leave,  

with only love to gain 

You gave her your life.  

You  gave  her your time,. 

You gave her your heart, 

and crushed mine in exchange. 

You chose to love her over me,

early trust betrayed, 

broken

fractured

burdened

my heart carries a lifetime of pain. 

I still don’t understand 

why you said 

“never call again”

but

Before I could ask you why, 

a click 

aching silence 

became our next  goodbye. 

Twenty-nine years of absence

nothing has ever truly numbed

 the pain  

the emptiness 

the loss

grows deeper. 

Being unworthy of your love still remains. 

Now your’e gone away again,  

your presence slipped away form earth,

no hope for reconciliation, 

has only surfaced hurt. 

Wherever you have gone

wherever you might be,  

whisper my name to the angels, 

maybe there, 

you’ll  find your love for me.