When I look into your eyes
I don’t see I’m sorry
I don’t see regret
I see the shadow of a father,
I wish I could forget.
The secrets behind your eyes,
the truths buried deep within your heart,
no one really knows them,
your smile hides the dark.
You thought that you could leave,
with only love to gain
You gave her your life.
You gave her your time,.
You gave her your heart,
and crushed mine in exchange.
You chose to love her over me,
early trust betrayed,
broken
fractured
burdened
my heart carries a lifetime of pain.
I still don’t understand
why you said
“never call again”
but
Before I could ask you why,
a click
aching silence
became our next goodbye.
Twenty-nine years of absence
nothing has ever truly numbed
the pain
the emptiness
the loss
grows deeper.
Being unworthy of your love still remains.
Now your’e gone away again,
your presence slipped away form earth,
no hope for reconciliation,
has only surfaced hurt.
Wherever you have gone
wherever you might be,
whisper my name to the angels,
maybe there,
you’ll find your love for me.
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